The drama going around

Ok, so their is this secret of mine that i have and i told my closest friends about it...then i told my bf. Well we broke up then he told his bff, hayden, and hayden told joey, my bff's bf, and so then i found out that justin lilly knew and he is the one in school who tels everyone everything no matter what it is. So now curtis knows and joey knows so does jesse hayden emily morgan courtney brittany mere sam lilly and who knows who else, prolly a lot. It is really nerve racking because it is really serious, and they dont understand that. It hurts me to know who all knows because it changes the way people look at me. Every night i sit in my bed and cry myself to sleep just thinking about it. Yet everyone thinks its funny and made up and all this other crap right infront of me making me want to just birst out in tears.. but i try not to so it wont draw attention . I just wish people would take into consideration my feelings.